OurStory

I did all my school work at work the other day. It was awesome except now I don't have anything to read. I'm having a hard time getting back into the swing of school. I like being busy. I don't feel like myself lately. I think it's the weather, I hate this weather. I want it to be cold and sunny-not hot and rainy. I have the biggest pile of dirty laundry you've ever seen in your life. I think tonight I'll start it. I have a hard time starting things. I want to stop drinking. I want to do more creative things. I want to buy paint but I don't have any money. Someone stole my bike from my brothers house and left their old bike. I'm kind of glad because now I can spray paint that bike and I think that'll be fun. I want to spend more time alone. I feel nervous almost all the time and I hate it. I want to talk to the school counselor but I'm scared. There's to much to deal with and I'm just not ready. I hate talking to other people about my problems. It makes me uncomfortable. I like spending more time on my own, but I miss being together all the time the way we all were this summer. I'm glad summers over. I'm applying for semester at sea for next summer. I want to get in, if I get in we're going to:Nassau, Bahamas Bergen, Norway St. Petersburg, Russia Copenhagen, Denmark Antwerp, Belgium Naples, Italy Istanbul, Turkey Piraeus, Greece Dubrovnik, Croatia Norfolk, VA I like my psychology classes, but I feel a little intimidated. Everyone is so smart and spends so much time studying. I study alot, but not as much as I could. I want to go to grad school, but I don't feel so certain I can get in anymore. I'm not sure if this is what I'm supposed to do anymore. I feel like I'm supposed to be doing something else, but I don't know what it is. I like St Augustine alot. I know a decent amount of people here now. My new apartments awesome, my new roomate is awesome, my room is awesome. I'm really broke though.I haven't been to the beach in a long time and I feel guilty about that. I feel guilty about alot of things lately.I went running last night and it was so nice. My ankle is swollen now though. the streets downtown are flooded and I wish I had rain boots